five twenty two: crooked paths

There has been a lot going on lately.... it's one of those chapters in your life that you'd like to skip over. I know later on down the road going through all of this is only going to make me stronger, but its tough! Luke and I have been having countless conversations just about everything. It has been a daily struggle lately to have faith. Some days are better than others... and then there are those days that you feel like you're all alone and you don't know whats going to happen. We've been graduated for 4 months now, the job market hasn't gotten any better and it's hard to stay focused and positive. I've been reading in Proverbs lately and it talks about having wisdom and trusting in God. One of my favorite verses is:

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Right now I feel like I'm on all sorts of crooked paths... I feel lost at times honestly. Confused about what it is that God wants me to do with my life and where he wants me to be. When I read this verse this time it spoke to me differently with everything I have going on in my life right now. I know it's easy to get frustrated and to sometimes not see the picture of God's plans for us, but theres absolutley nothing I can do except trust in him and leave my worries in his hands and he will straighten my paths for me.

My own father is a great example of someone who has never stopped trusting in God. He was without a job for about 8 months and had all of the stresses of how to provide for his family and get bills and everything else taken care of weighing down on his shoulders. I know my dad had tough days, but you never heard about them and you couldn't tell if it was a bad day or not. He is such a hard worker, as well as my mom.... they both will do anything for my brothers, sister, and I. But both of my parents trusted in God 100% to provide and take care of us and that's exactly what God did... he provided for my family and on those days that our paths seemed crooked he straightened them and gave us hope when it was much needed! Yes 8 months is a very long time, but God has a reason for everything.

This has been a long post, but it feels good to journal about this... There are bad days and it's hard to deal with them sometimes... but in the end God is always going to be there for us and he's always going to straighten our paths out, we just have to trust in him! And he has perfect timing for everything. Hang in there Luke... we're going to get through this (together). And we're going to look back in 10 years and probably laugh. =)